Just random thoughts

Lightheadedness again ! :S

I really need to workout, I can feel my body asking for it.

Anyway, this post is about how to remain positive:

1. Whenever you feel depressed, just go out in daylight and let nature heal you.
2. Maintain a diary or a secret journal like this one. Write down all the positive things that happened.
3. Smile when you should, laugh when something amusing happens and talk when you want to. Don't deprive yourself of things you like.
4. Ofcourse, if you are happy then stay away from people who are negative. Positivity and negativity are both infectious.
5. Everyday is bound to give you shocks. Not everything can be controlled. So worry about it? Take it easy. You can also write down your shock of the day and then balance it out with the positive things that happened.
6. Very important. Yoga/meditation
7. Remember positivity is the state of mind. you need to yearn for it to be able to accomplish it. This doesn't mean that you can not have negative thoughts, that is completely natural. just remember, you can stay optimistic and find a solution to every problem.

 So what were my surprise and shock for today?
Surprise: I woke up early..yay! I had enough time to clean and cook.
Shock: I ended up sleeping the entire evening. Also, I spent 1.5 hours calling around people in Fargo/Moorhead just to figure out where can I get a varicella vaccine and so far, I am not successful in my mission.

Creepy guy at the library

I was studying in the library when a guy comes and stands next to me.
He was clearly staring at me.

When I looked towards him, he asked me if he could sit behind me. I was like, "Sure."
*Why was he asking? He does not seem completely normal either* I wondered

Anyway next he comes and stands at the aisle next to me. I ignore him. He returns and I look at him and I ask, "Can I help you?"
He mumbled something. I couldn't understand.

"Sorry?" I said.
"Can I have a hug?", he said.
"A hug?", I said
"Yea. A hug." he said
"No" I replied
He went away disappointed and I felt bad for him and I said, "Sorry...."

Later I noticed him at the aisle infront of me. He was trying to peek at me but the moment he felt he was caught, he went away.
AFter a minute I felt somebody was standing behind me, I turned around to see him.
He, "Can you sit here?" Pointing to the couch behind me.

Me, "What? Why?"
He, "Can I sit here?" This time he was pointing to the floor.
Me, "Why?"
He, "Because I want to." He sounded frustrated. And he squatted down on the floor.

*Why is he sitting on the floor. *

Anyway I turn around again and he again asks me for a hug.
I reply, "No"
He, "But you are so pretty." He was so desperate.

"No", I snapped at him.

He was at the verge of tears when I saw him run away.

I was completely freaked out and I decided to leave the library when I ran into this Nigerian guy who starting hitting on me at once. He knew little Hindi and even wished me a very happy independence day. Anyway so when he learned about my medical plans he said, "Yea, you will become a doctor and end up marrying an Indian guy. This is how it happens."


Me, "Have you ever been to India?"
He, "I haven't but I want to, especially Mumbai. That is the main hub of movies. Bollywood! I even try to learn Hindi. I have this app on my phone but it is not very good. Maybe you could teach me some."

I asked, "Sure. What do you do?" trying to avoid what he said.

He replied, "I just took my GMAT last week and will take my LSAT soon. Then I would like to go and work in Hyderabad. You should come there too and invent some technology or something and then you can break the rule and marry a Nigerian guy instead. We will have a big, lavish, colorful Nigerian-Indian wedding."

*We?? When did we become WE??*
He then said, "What is your facebook?"
Me, "I don't have facebook."
He continued, "Give me your number or email address since what are the chances that I will see you again here."
Me, "Maybe you will."
He said, "No, I can not just wait and do nothing. I meet this girl and I have to make sure that I meet her again. America is not a place to remain superstitious."
Me, "But I come from a country of superstitions."
He said, "Okay. just give me your email address. You can always put me in spam if you want."
Me, "That's not nice to put somebody in spam."
He said, "How will I contact you again?"
Me, "Okay, if I meet you again here, I will give you my email address. Let's see what is the probability of us meeting again here."
He, "Okay, how about you take my email address?"
Me, "Sure." I pretended to take his email just to get rid of him.


He replied, "Shukriya."
Me, "Your hindi is very good."
He, "Thank you. I want to have a Nigerian-India baby."


And he walked away to catch his bus.
I was like What the...!!!

Time to make things happen

So my Dad refuses to speak to me. I know it must take effort for him to even talk to me once a week. It happens to me, when I want to hibernate and yet I have to call my parents every day, just for their sake.

Mom is planning on having another surgery but  my Dad is completely crabby and has lost all hope.
I can not wait until December. It will be like waiting and watching. I can not be so helpless.

I will give this exam to the best of my ability and make plans to go home asap. Even if it is only for few days. And as long as I make sure that my studies are not being compromised, I am sure nobody will be able to disagree with my plan.

What do you do?

when the person who motivates you, who is your ideal, who makes you feel that no matter how hard the problem is there is always a solution to it; the person who is the source of your optimism.

What do you do when such a person loses his optimism?

Reflection

Mann kar raha hai ki ek baar India jakar wapas aa jaun. I never thought ki main life mei kabhi itni helpless hongi. My only option is to wait. This is the time when patience kills the most.

My 21st birthday... full of blasts

Year 2012 has been the most memorable year for me so far. No wonder my 21st birthday falls this year full of bangs.

I was not really excited about my birthday. For the first time, I did not really keep tab on any dates. It was only when I realized that my parents are excited for my birthday that I started showing some enthusiasm. Nonetheless, I wanted to spend the birthday alone and in peace.

Faru had some other plans. She had already planned with Sonam to take me out for lunch. But I did not want to go. Anyway, we went for shopping which was a disaster. No matter how much I liked wearing dresses, all those that I liked and wanted to buy wouldn't look good on me. Anyway, ended up buying two pair of shoes instead. Mahi from Mahi Way did mentione, no matter what, shoe size doesnt change.

I had hidden my birthday from facebook, trying to remain a little low on my birthday but my sister's various facebook tags created an uproar on facebook. It was sweet though. I was still waiting to hear from a couple of my friends. And I was waiting desperately.

Next morning I did receive birthday wishes from the friends I was waiting to hear from. One of them even called me and we ended up chatting for an hour. It was a disappointment though to hear that he plans to continue his further study in India itself. Nonetheless, I did tell him that I was disappointed but I guess, it is okay. He is a sweetheart. Will talk about him later.

My friend Sonam came over bringing tons of beautiful presents for me. Some Tibetan goodies alongwith a card and a bottle of wine. I just loved the wine. I ended up breaking my diet rules that day but it was all good. Had awesome dinner - dal makhani, roasted chicken, tortillas along with wine, and different preparations of vodka.

Watched Andaz Apna Apna, halfway through, followed by Tashan. Yes, Tashan. I told you this birthday was full of bangs. Some good, some weird.

It was weird because other than people who should wish me, there were also people who were actually texting or calling me to wish me in addition to using facebook. My brothers in law, especially. And the funniest thing was, almost everyone who called and wished me actually sang the happy birthday song for me.My birthday was celebrated in two different continents. My sister, my cousin and her husband, my dad- actually treated people on my birthday. My dad asked teh servant to make my favorite aloo, puri and suji halwa for guests while my jiju tried his hands on a new recipe for his friends. My mom went to Shirdi to pray for me.
It was all so sweet.

Even Scroogie texted me early in the morning and that was a pleasant surprise because this year I did not wish him properly. I just facebooked him and I am pretty sure my wish got lost somewhere in his timeline.

Sounds like a good day, so what went wrong? I rather not mention it here.
I just wish everything turns out to be fine, I wish my dad gets well soon and all his wishes are fulfilled. This is my birthday wish for this up coming year.

Rakhi Surprise for me

You won't believe what Siddharth did?
God, I do not believe it myself.
Check it out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tpoi5Zi7XzM&feature=youtu.be

In the recording of history it is impossible to be objective.

Explain what you think the above statement means. Describe a specific situation in which it might be possible to be objective in the recording of history. Discuss what you think determines when objectivity in the recording of history is possible and when it is not.

Objectivity is the way of presenting things in their actual states, without any personal feelings being involved. It is usually maintained when reporting facts or events that happened for sure, without any doubt. However, if proper facts are not collected, personal opinions mingle with the reality of the situation, giving it a subjective approach.

In the recording of history, it is impossible to be objective. This is true when the facts related to the event are not very concrete. If the individual knows only one side of the situation, he or she tends to be biased and opinionated when recording the event. For instance,in the history books of India, Britishers are condemned for bringing in the divide and rule policy, thereby causing teh Hindu and Muslim conflicts in an otehrwise peaceful nation. While according to the Britishers, they were ruling an otherwise disgruntled group of people, to avoid them from killing each other.

It might still be possible to be objective in the recording of history. For instance, when we talk about the 9/11 attack on the Twin Towers, it is known for sure that the attack was made via the planes hijacked by the terrorists from the militant group of al-Qaeda. These are concrete facts with strong evidences and millions of people as witnesses. No one can deny this truth. There are no feelings involved in the facts stated above and hence, it is a completely objective approach to report the situation.

So what determines when objectivity is possible or not while recording history? It completely depends on the goal of reporting the event. If the goal of the event is to state merely the facts, then it is possible to be objective. But if the facts are cloudy then the goal also involves reporting the causes and the after-effects of an event which results in mingling of personal feelings and biases resulting in a subjective report.

Fairy and the limits of her optimism

Fairy, "So, if he hooks up with some other girl, will you feel bad?"

Me, "I might be sad but I will not feel bad or angry about it."

Fairy, "Why not?"

Me, "Why should I? Why should he wait for me?"

Fairy, "Why not?"

Me, "Because every time we talk it is like friends. Neither he has said anything nor have I. He has no reason to wait for me and I have no reason to expect that. And the kind of person I am, I will not take a step unless he does."

Fairy, "I always thought there is a silent commitment between you guys."

Me, "Not really. I mean, we just started talking RECENTLY. Before that we were in our own worlds wooing and being wooed by different people. And every time we have talked it is just like friends. Although he is always concerned about what is happening with me and everything but I guess any friend of mine would do that. Yea, he might be the only guy who does that. Anyway, from my past experience I should not really rely on my intuitions because no matter how right I am, guys can always end up being a jerk.  So I do not expect him to wait for me. I will be sad, maybe but I will not feel betrayed or anything."

After some more conversation
Me, "Yes. If he hooks up with a friend of mine or a girl who is very similar to me, that is when I will feel betrayed."

P.S. Silent Commitment? Happens only in movies.